Lately my cup has frequently felt empty. I've felt spent, done, exhausted, emotionally absent, and all around stressed out. I've spent my entire life (as I know many others have as well) trying to strike a balance between all the various pressures and pulls in different directions.
This morning I'm blogging to make note of a break through, so I can try to remember something I've known before but so quickly and easily forgot: I must make time for God.
Sometimes we lose Him.
He never loses us. He never forgets us. He is constantly watching and listening and waiting with outstretched arms for us, like toddlers, to amble back in His direction, for us to remember that we still need Him desperately.
How is it that we sometimes think that we can't afford the time to seek God, or to take time for our Devotion? How can we afford not to?!
We should sacrifice anything and everything (truly it is worth any and every sacrifice) to find Him first everyday.
Too often we pray or study our scriptures for no other reason than we're supposed to pray and study our scriptures. This isn't enough. We need to pray and study our scriptures and ponder and plead because we NEED Him, and because we need to have a communion, a connection, a conversation with Him.
I feel recommitted to taking whatever time it requires each morning to feel His love and to refocus my perspective on His will. I will persist in this because it fills my cup. It prepares me for the challenges I will inevitably face on a daily basis. It will make me an effective servant and instrument.
I will do so because if I don't, then what's the point of everything else?